Is there a mistake in your life that haunts you? Do you frequently wish you could go back in time and change what happened? Or maybe the incident pops into your brain and you’re filled with disgust or grief. If you can relate, you’re not alone.
I want to start this off by saying that no matter what you’ve done, where you’ve come from, or what you think of yourself, you are so valued and loved.
Let’s face it, we’re human and we screw up… a lot. At least I do. I have talked unkindly to people, I’ve told a lie, deliberately disobeyed a superior– the list goes on and on. These are things that I’m certainly not proud of.
Sometimes, I think about the wrong that I’ve done and it makes me feel defeated, undeserving, and unworthy. I begin to dwell on these wrongdoings and meditate on them. “What could I have done differently? If only I didn’t say/do that. I must be a bad person.” Unfortunately, these thoughts have crept their way into my brain more than a handful of times, and after awhile, I start to become deceived by the shadow shame.
The truth is, shame is a tactic used by Satan to make God’s children feel unworthy of grace. Shame is not of God. I read somewhere that God allows us to feel guilty for our wrongdoings, but He never wants us to feel shame. It is simply not of His nature. I view Him as a loving parent, one that corrects, but never belittles or puts down.
God is far bigger than our past failures. In fact, if you’ve received Him into your heart, He doesn’t even think of your former sins! They are cast away and He views you as His most precious gem. How beloved you are! It doesn’t matter what you think of yourself if God sees you as His own. Rest in that today.
In conclusion, your mistakes do not define who you are. They don’t determine your worth or your value. Never let your guilt turn to shame. Messing up is a part of life. All we can do is ask God for guidance and learn from our experiences. God knows that we’re gonna fall short sometimes. He doesn’t expect us to be perfect on our own. Instead, He wants us to live in an open relationship with Him, where we can have vulnerability, honesty, and communication. He wants every part of us… even the messy aspects!
P.S. If you don’t have a relationship with God, I encourage you to get to know Him. Its a lot easier than you’d think. He loves you! If you’d like more information, leave a comment. I’ll gladly answer any questions you have!